Jesus!

I am not made for this world. This is not my home.

For some reason, today is the day...an ordinary day...that I understand this.

After a long day of studying for exams, hearing of loss, saying goodbye to friends, being surrounded by conflict, heartache, hardship and struggle, I get it. I am not home, I am just passing through.

One of my favorite songs this year was "Where I Belong" by Building 429 (go listen to it NOW if you don't know it). The best line. in my opinion, says "Take this world, and give me Jesus." That is exactly how I felt tonight.

Saying goodbye is never fun, even if you know you are going to see that person in 2 days. It is hard! It feels like your friendship is going to be over, all of these doubts and lies come into you mind and it just hurts. It's one of the worst pains. Gosh. It hurts. Most of the time it hurts because of all the good times you had. You recall all the memories and that makes saying goodbye even harder...you never want to forget those memories. That's how it is for me at least. So after saying goodbye today along with being surrounded by so much hurt and hardship, all I wanted was Jesus. To rest in Jesus. To be still in His presence. To be quiet. To thank Him for being un-changing in this ever-changing world. All I wanted was Jesus.

And that is when it hit me, like a ton of bricks. This place is not my home.

My home is in the arms of my savior Jesus Christ.